Loving a child

Every one today has many different ways to saying how/what way you show love. Some times showing love and giving love can be the hardest thing you have every done.

This is so true as to any woman that has placed their child for adoption, this is to you ~ Thank you. I realize that you may not hear that to often or maybe even never. I say this from the fact that I am adopted so I mean this with all my heart>

I received this in an email today from an old friend. Life is interesting as you never know what others have gone through and how similar your lives may be.

It's by Oscar Hammerstein "Love in your heart wasn't put there to stay. Love isn't Love, til you give it away..."

LEGACY OF AN ADOPTED CHILD

Once there were two women

Who never knew each other

One you do not remember

The other you call mother

Two different lives

Shaped to make yours one

One became your guiding star

And the other became your sun

The first gave you life

And the second taught you to live in it

The first gave you a need for love

And the second was there to give it

One gave you a nationality

The other gave you a name

One gave you the seed of talent

The other gave you an aim

One gave you emotions

The other calmed your fears

One saw your first sweet smile

The other dried your tears

One gave you up ~

It was all she could do

The other prayed for a child

And God led her straight to you

And now you ask me

Through your tears

The age-old question

through the years

Heredity or environment ~

Which are you the product of?

Neither, my darling, neither

Just two different kinds of love

Spring cleaning

I realized yesterday that I needed to do a spring cleaning. Its a little different that the normal as I mean the store computer:)

As in the last week I realized that it was running very slow, so this morning I stated the task of going through files.....so much fun as I ended up having to check the files as the labels didn't really remind me of what they were;)

I came across this letter I wrote a year after my mother pasted.

Thank you mom

This summer has been a journey, more lessons in patients and to look within me.

When I would say is their something wrong with me?

Your reply was maybe it's not you....but them.

And to give them time.

I understand now that being a woman, friend and mother means listening, understanding, patient and strength.

You were that when I was growing up and even towards the end, you were right mom.

As giving birth, gives life. Being a mother comes from looking within and finding inner strength and peace. So now I will follow your role.

And when the time calls I will be mother to all.

Looking within, I will go through this journey of life with strength, because that is what you have always been and will be.

It is now almost 2 years since mom has passed and I still feel the love and strength from her.

I know the last while my posts have been a tad sad, but this is the softer side of BBB.

When I have a lovely chat(today) with an expectant mom and she talks of this deep love and when I say I understand its because I seen it through my mothers eyes.

Moments when you can only breath

It's Friday afternoon and I just managed to read the whig. Randy had called this morning to ask me to pick it up.

I have had to erase more than I have written....I thought today would be better as Wed I so wanted to post to release these emotions. Wed at 5:30 I picked up the phone to hear Randy voice, I knew it was not good news. But the news gombsmaked me...............Aunt Janet had passed on. I was in shock and still think I may be! As we knew this day would come as she was fighting cancer, we had just seen her. I remember saying to Randy that she did not look to bad. Why! Why do we have to lose someone to cancer of all the medical wonders why are people still dying? Why will our children need to hear stories and look at pictures to know them.

I will miss Aunt Janet greatly. The first time I met her was Easter 05 as Randy and I were just dating and his Aunt Helen had asked us over for Easter diner. I entered a warm and caring home filled with now family. Aunt Janet was sitting in one of the big chairs, I had bought a gift and silly me had thought Aunt Janet was Aunt Helen so I gave her the gift. Thats how warm and beautiful she was.

The pictures above are Aunt Janet at Aunt Helen's birthday. Even being ill she had a sense of humor which I will miss.

So tonight the store will be closed earlier than normal so that we can get ready for this evening, as the family/friends gather to remember her. Sat we will also be closed, we are sorry for any inconvenience this may cause.

So tonight when you are close to your loved ones give them a hug and feel blessed!

~ Missing her ~

I find it interesting how one conversation, one moment can remind you, remind you of the one persons that you long for.

The last few weeks I have missed my mother tremendously, she passed away 2 years in April with cancer.

The picture to the right is her and I. And to the far right is me, the broach on my hat is my moms and the neckless is my grandmothers(moms).

The last few days I have been listening to Hallelujah(shrek song) for some reason it gives me comfort. Maybe the reason for all these feelings is for the fact Jan was the month we had the news from the doctors, who knows! I just know I would love to have her back. Now I know that will never happen, but we all know that the thought of them being here can over whelm your emotions.

I have no regrets and that not why I miss her, its to the fact that so many happy things have/will take place and she has been missed.

Mom was still with us when I started planning for the store and when I had ideas and thoughts I would share them with her. Just like when I asked her what was the #1 thing she liked for babies? Her reply was night gowns and to this day I have grandmothers coming in saying the same.

Oh god do I miss her today..................................! I better go, tears are coming...............and I am in the store...............

Being a mom!

I just had a chat with a woman and we were talking about this and that and then the topic of adoption came up. This is a close topic(adoption) as Mr.Bump and I are adopting the journey has been long but we know when all is said and done the wait will have been worth it.
The woman had mentioned a quote and as soon as she started I knew the one, as my mom would say it to me. Oh yes I am adopted, I can say it takes a special person to adopted as it is not for everyone and thats okay!
The quote - " you did not grow under my heart but in it" Please let me know if I have it wrong :)
I see every day families and the interesting thing is no two are the same but they all are made with/from love, so what better way to create a family is through love.
Yes, I thought I was done with this blog for today. I went on a search for the quote, I did not find it but I did find this from - chicken soup for the adoption soul
And yes you will need tissue's

I could Not Conceive

They told me I could not conceive, and tests showed
they were right;
They considered but the physical, forgetting our
Father’s might.
True, my child, I did not conceive you within the limits
of my womb;
But still you grew within my heart- a heart with
boundless room.

They told me I could not conceive, and in one way they
were right;
Now I know they are the barren ones, comprehension
out of sight.
For they cannot conceive, my son, of how it feels to see
The face of a child, not of my flesh, but of my destiny.

They cannot conceive, my child, of what it means to
love
Another woman, another man, who prayed to God
above
And then decided to love enough, to give to me their son

To love, and raise, and call my own, until my life is
done.
They cannot conceive, dear one, of bonds beyond the
ties
Of if you have your daddy’s nose or if you have my
eyes.
They cannot conceive, my child, of all the Lord still has
in store
For this family he created, not flesh and bone, but
more.

They told me I could not conceive, and in part their
words were true...
For I cannot conceive, dear son, of never loving you.
~ Valerie Kay Gwin

Hoop fitness

Our new session of hoop fitness starts tomorrow night at 6:30pm, I cant wait to hear the ladies having fun. I would love to join in on the classes but it is not in the books for me, my body is just not designed for it. Trust me I would love to be in on the fun but my fun is bringing the classes to everyone else to enjoy.
I am going to ask the class if it is okay for me to take photos of them having fun, as I don't think people truly believe that it is fun.

new year & new ideas

2010 brings new ideas and changes to Baby Bump & Beyond. Don't worry we are just improving what we have and expanding to what you have asked for.

If there are classes, events or products that you would like for us to bring in to BBB let us know. We are happy to have you're input. I will say that I am a poor speller/grammar but I have always said that what I am best at is making you happy and making things look pretty!

So mind the errors and I will do my best :)